The Race I Didn’t Know I Was Running

Have You been Feeling Like You Are Never Catching Up With Life?

Have you been feeling like there is always more to do and never enough time?
Like everything must get done, and the stress of completing things is always on your mind?

Do you feel like if you slow down, everything might collapse?

You are always on edge to complete things, to get things done, to just finish them and move on to the next thing without looking back. Chances are you are in survival mode

Because you are always focused on getting things done and moving on to the next thing you need to handle, you never slow down to reflect on your work. You don’t allow yourself to stop and see what you have created.

The thought becomes: I just did what I had to do. There’s nothing more to it.

This affects your sense of worth. And this creates a deep sense of never being enough.

It feels like you must keep doing more and more.

But underneath it all, there is an emptiness and a quiet question: Who am I doing all this for? and Why?

But this question never arises unless you stop and catch yourself in the middle of this unknown race you have been running.

A race with no opponents. No clear beginning. No idea where it ends.

Take a Gentle Pause ❤️

If this spoke to you, I created something soft for you…
A free journaling page to help you slow down and come back to yourself.

You can print it and use it each morning as a gentle ritual to begin your day with calm and presence. 

You can DOWNLOAD it here

It still breaks my heart to realize that I have lived in this constant survival mode for so many years. And sometimes, even now, I slip into it unconsciously. My brain can quickly move into fight-or-flight in a blink when something triggers it.

After months of practicing tools to regulate my nervous system, it can still take hours, sometimes even days for me to return fully to a calm state.

I wish I could say that I can move through life boldly, doing daring things and experiencing more of life. The desire to live more fully is there.

But so is fear.

It takes courage to be more of yourself.
It takes courage to feel your feelings and own them.
It takes courage to acknowledge who you have been.

And it takes even more courage to become the woman you want to be.

Becoming means accepting that change is inevitable. Yet the mind often resists change more than anything else.

But when your desire for the life you are want to live becomes greater than your fear, change becomes possible.
When your trust in who you are becoming becomes stronger than your fear, you begin to transform.

You build courage by knowing that whatever comes your way, you will find a way through it.

And slowly, you stop the race you have been running for so long.

You take the power to stop because you realize something important:

You were the only one running the race.

From there, you begin to let go.

Not from exhaustion,
but from trust.

Trust that you have got this.

And an even deeper trust in something larger than you 
the Universe, God, your Higher Self, or Mother Nature.